I woke up, meditated, and walked with Lauren. But I had a hard time doing all. I felt off. An unwell/exhausted type of off. I slept OK but didn't wake well and I decided on my walk that I was going to cave and order the long-desired "circadian rythme" based sunrise light alarm clock. I ordered it this am in time for it to actually arrive this evening. It's all set up and ready for a first pass trial tomorrow morning. I worked from home for most of the AM and went to SRC around 2.30 pm. Linda had moved rooms by the time I got there but it was uneventful, she slept through it apparently. Kathy was there and when I arrived, shortly after, she opened her eyes. What happened next, while I was there and we were talking to her, really hit a nerve. Her lower lip quivered and her eyes welled with tears. Multiple times. I kept it together as did Kathy but that was enough for me to be fully convinced that she's aware of her surroundings and circumstances, but unable to communicate freely. The removal of the anxiety meds is likely a part of this. Kathy said she had some further experience later in the evening that was positive and that may be a reason to not put her back on those meds. We'll talk about it tomorrow. My friend in Salinas whose son reached out to us asking for help, just prior to his dad's hospitalization, is getting help and hopefully will be able to get back on their feet soon. We went to Tommy's hockey game tonight - Varsity against a really good team. They lost but it was an exciting game all the same. I just need to remember to bring gloves and more padded seating.
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