For whatever reason, I woke up around 5 am and just got up and started my morning early. I used the time to meditate and listen to podcasts while making some breakfast which included having one of those "double yokes" in one eggshell experiences. I had to skip the dog walk to make it to Panorama for day 2 of the more intense portions of the BIG facilitator course. We practiced some trial facilitations, and I think they went well. We also watched an excellent short film about grief that hit many chords for me. Considering the year the kids and I have had, my friend's recent loss, a friend's suicide a year or so back, it all surfaced. We took a break at the midpoint just in time for the Panorama gardner to arrive. They cleared things as I'd requested, and I told them to continue weekly service for the time being. The rains are bringing back the lawn, and I don't want to mess with weeds or have to mow occasionally. Once we finished, I picked up Lauren, and we went hiking "the Dish." Tommy wasn't interested in going with us. I made the mistake of wearing a matching color sweatshirt, and it was way too hot. I had to go shirtless! Not something I'd typically be comfortable with, but it was necessary if I wanted to get back down without being airlifted. We stopped at Cobblestone for ice cream and returned to Matson. Tommy had drunk Lauren's Gatoraid, a conflict ensued, Tommy and I got into an argument, and I walked away and tried to nap. The hike wiped me out. I was on edge and exhausted, but taking a break and getting a bit of sleep made a big difference. I used the rest of the night to get some files and to-do's updated. I'm relistening to "four thousand weeks" and glad I'm doing so.