Light fixture bolt falls, rolls under closet door, hides for 15 minutes, drives man insane
Yesterday's Aqui lunch with mom was pleasant, but it did get me thinking. What do I return to and relive or rehash? She brings up people and incidents from her past quite a lot and I suspect I do too. The divorce, Linda's cancer, work issues…. What am I going on about that's tired, old, already been said and perhaps holding me back? I stopped blogging about the divorce awhile back because it felt like a dead horse. Jen and I talk about some of the same stuff over and over too. I want to stop that. I need to stop that. I need to look around and ahead but not back. After visiting with her I got the Hairspray tickets and enjoyed the afternoon solo at Matson. Lauren and I had to do a rapid-turnaround routine between 6.15-7pm in order to get the neighbor's dogs fed and walked and her to work. We made it with room to spare. I enjoyed time on the patio with the fire pit as I'd intended. I slept well for a change. I woke feeling refreshed. My morning wake up routine with the ascending music playing on my iPhone, which I leave in the in bathroom in order to force me to rise before it gets too loud, is working well. And a recent find, a "Sunrise Alarm", might have helped too. I fed the dogs and walked Scottie around 6.30am. The sunrise was beautiful. The skies were blanketed with wispy stretches of oranges and grayish clouds. I listened to part 1 of the Cinefiles on "There Will Be Blood". Jennifer came back from her annual girls weekend mid-day. I need that. I need more time away from everything, as there is so much going on. The realities of Linda's impending demise weight heavy on me. It's painful to realize how much of an impact this will have on their future, the rest of their lives, and I find myself saddened when I read some of the posts throughout this year and recognize moments that seemed awful at the time, but which would be gifts to have once more.
