Knot pulling the plug
Started the day on the right foot: 2 great meditations, a 2m solo walk, time with Jen and Scottie talking about how precious life is and how wasteful time spent being angry is. Then I went to Panorama and the house came down all around me. Metaphorically. The condition I found things set me off. The mess on the driveway, including spray paint markings, and the crap spread all about the garage. It hit every trigger at once. The text exchange with Tommy about it set off a massive amount of tension that culminated in what I can only categorize as a breakdown. Words were exchange, frustrations were vented and tears were shed. I think the past year's drama's warranted a good breakdown after 7 months. And it seems like we butt heads about as often, so perhaps this was just… "due". We seem to be beyond it for the moment but I also realize that some personality disorders are not likely to ever change, statistically. You'll note I'm not saying who's got one. Considered reaching back out to the marriage/family counselor I went to with his mom at one point. Toying with the idea but the hard part with that is getting him to go. And the cost. Other highlights include the toilet at Pano getting reseated and leveled.I didn't get to Linda's today but may try for a stretch of time tomorrow. I made dinner tonight for Jen and Lauren – an Indian spiced set of Chicken breasts. They didn't agree with me. I'll leave it at that. I'm on the patio with Jen while waiting to pick up Lauren. It was 91 high today, tomorrow is 81, then it drops. It might be the last night or two we get to enjoy the fire pit on warm evenings. It's been a great investment.