Highlights: Friday was my mom's 83rd birthday. Jen, Lindsey, Ryan, and I took her to Tomato Thyme for dinner. The meal was wonderful and we had a nice time. In retrospect, I wasn't as engaged in the event as I would have liked to have been. We talked a lot about many various things but it would have been nice to have put more attention onto her life at this milestone. Next year. Jen and I went to Tommy's hockey game afterward and it was great. They were down 0-4 and came back to tie it with literally 3.2 seconds on the clock when scoring the 4th point. Jen is so fun to watch this with, she really gets into the moment. Sometimes I feel like she's far more adept and living in the present than I am, and I admire that. Over the course of the weekend, I watched "The Royal Tenenbaums" again, for likely the 5th or 6th time, and enjoyed it as much if not more so than before. Maybe it's age, experience, or a deeper appreciation for the craft of writing and the art of production. I followed it with "The Life Aquatic", something I watched once and discarded but again, I appreciated it much more. Next up is "The Darjling Limited" which was broadly panned but I recall thinking it was OK the one time I watched it. I'm definitely delaying going to the new one, this marathon is taking longer than expected. But it's raining today, making it the perfect opportunity to continue. I did not make it back to visit Linda Friday but I went Saturday after dropping Lauren off. She's sleeping a great deal of the time and when awake, stares out the window, and has the briefest of moments of eye contact. I so wish we could know what's going on in her mind and thoughts so we could make more informed decisions about how to help her be at peace but without feedback that's not possible. At least she does not appear to be in any pain, although emotionally if she's conscious below the surface, I know this to be her worst nightmare. After struggling with Lauren on Thursday about how long we visited, I have stopped pressing or even bringing doing so again up for either of them. I know I'm trying to 'get ahead of a time in their lives when they might regret not spending time while they have it but time spent beyond what they're emotionally capable of is not time spent wisely.
Habits & Routines: Mediation Presence Gratitude Calm Action Family Exercise Weight↔︎
Habits & Routines: Mediation Presence Gratitude Calm Action Family Exercise Weight↔︎