What goes around, comes around, again and again and again
My morning meditation was about learning to 'be in the boggle' of chaos and being ok with and accepting of it without feeling a need to control it. Good timing, considering much fo my daily life has been attempts to manage chaos. But even after that reminder I was back spinning up over one of many issues I''m immersed in. As I mentioned to some friends last night, trying to live every moment aware and conscious and present can be exhausting. I worked from Linda's room again. I met with both Dr Silva and Kim from hospice. The view remains that her mediations have her 'comfortable' and we're waiting for things to progress while keeping her pain and anxiety managed. I left for work meetings after lunch. Kelly visited her with a priest and found her anxious and unsettled. Lauren and I returned later though and she was calm. I guess it's a moving target. On an interesting note Linda's friend had brought her nice wedding silverware to SRC in her apartment in Assisted Living, but some pieces went missing. Two showed up today. One had shown up two weeks ago but I was distracted and did not hold it. This time I did. It's interesting to imagine how several pieces are likely going around in random fashion but landing back in her hands at one point or another. Tommy went camping with Eric and Carl. Lauren's working all weekend so Jen and I will have some much needed solo time. My CRV battery cable arrived so I'm anticipating having the car back next week. Watched "The Final Year" documentary on HBO.