Still not sleeping as well as I would like but had a good start all the same. Down to 184, 12 to go. Feeling great about it. Relaxed a tad tonight and enjoyed a small glass of Malbec with a delicious Ribeye. I'm obsessively checking weight daily and I anticipate it'll go up a bit. As long as I'm reasonable about my expectations it's a great way to stay focused. I saw "The Two Popes" tonight after dinner. Good, but I thought Hopkins' performance in "The Father" was a greater achievement. I listened to a podcast interview with him the other day and took note of him having 'been sober for 45 years. I'm feeling better and better about having removed vices and although I don't intend to stop enjoying wine in greater moderation I think the rest of the stuff that I leaned on is behind me going forward. The escape and relaxation are enticing but the presence and focus are proving to be the more productive of the options. I didn't see Linda today but will take Lauren tomorrow. I had too many work demands. Bonnie went and perceived sadness. Perhaps it's genuine. It's a heartbreaking situation all around. One lesson this has taught me is that you always need to tell somebody if they're dying regardless of if they want to know or not. I'll save that for another time and site. I had a good walk with Lauren this morning, 2m loop as usual. I returned the same side this time, though, to mix it up and change my perspective. I worked from Stanley's at Solar Ice in order to see Tommy skating. It was like old-time and I hopefully convened support and interest, which has waned with all the other demands. He's gotten better and had some impressive moves. I'm really looking forward to some 1:1 time tomorrow with Jen while Lauren's working another 12hr day and Tommy will likely be doing more hockey, driving, and being with friends.