I went through a broad range of activities, events, and emotions today. It started with a good and poignant meditation in which I was able to stay present and maintain focus. The theme touched on the opinions and judgments of others being something that your actions can only change over time and exposure. Lauren and I saw Linda before Lauren went to work. She did not have much to say. It's hard to tell if her anxiety is present or not, but she was saying "please, please, please "at one point. When she tries to talk, she creases her brow. She did open her eyes and look at each of us. She also stared off into the distance, which may be "focal seizures. " On a positive note, she kissed both of us on the cheek. That was a sweet moment. Lauren lit up. I wrote an update to the broader set of friends, shared it with Kirsten, and finally took a moment to write Liz Du about things. I'm glad I did, but I regret not doing so sooner. She might have had an opportunity to have connected with Linda when she was in SRC AL. Same with Kirsten. It's uncomfortable reliving this whole thing when trying to relay all that has taken place. I think at some level, my avoidance was because I didn't want to relive it myself. It's an awful position to be in, but as always, I'm far from the one in a bad situation. I touched base with Marya, too, following up on her attempts to reach out. I hope we can all reconnect soon in person, but it's becoming harder each day to pretend all this isn't taking its toll. And yet again, I'm not the one lying in a care center removed from everything I knew while an incurable disease takes my life from me, so what have I got to complain about? I guess I have a lot of mixed feelings about all of this. Writing Liz stirred the pot for me, which isn't a bad thing. I bet this is very typical for caregivers and families dealing with such situations. All that aside, I got a chance to focus today on clearing the patio, organizing the garage, and even collecting the photos I want to be scanned. I'm just waiting for the prior order to arrive so I can evaluate their work. But getting all my photos digitized and in my photos library will be great. There are decades of life and memories and friends all going unseen and unappreciated in boxes in a garage. I will make sure they're part of my rotating photos along with the kids and Jen's too. We (the kids and Jen and I) have managed to ride out this past year's turmoil and grown closer through it. We had dinner. Tommy got the new iPhone and was immersed in editing videos while Jen and I and Lauren played Farkle. Oh, Jen and I trimmed Scottie earlier today, too, pretty dramatically. (We have some touch-up work left to do as well.) I also took apart and tried to resolve the brake light issue on the BMW, but it'll take a few days to confirm it's fully functional again.