Lauren & Linda 8/22/21
I tried changing something up a bit this morning. It wasn't my idea; it was Scotties. I'm still managing to get up early, and when I do, I feel the dogs before I meditate. This morning he went right from eating to spinning circles and running towards the door. So I thought, WTF, let's try something and move a few routines around. Lauren has been getting up early and walking to school as a preference. She seems to enjoy it, and I'm happy for her doing so as long as it's not dark out. I'm still a parent. I got Jen up, and off we went. When we returned, I did my meditation. It worked well, well enough that I'll try it again tomorrow. I was able to focus and enjoyed this particular session about "shared humanity". It touched on a theme I've blogged about myself. Being patient, aware, and considerate of other's situations and circumstances. They even used a similar example as I have. The annoyingly lousy driver that you come to learn is a student driver and is understandably nervous. I showered and shaved, and jumped on the AM call. I went to work from SRC around 1. She was asleep. The caregiver said that she ate breakfast and lunch, was reasonably responsive, and said things like "thank you." That sounds much better than she was yesterday. Kathy's not making any medication changes after talking to hospice and the doctor. I got her on the phone, and she spoke to Linda, hoping she heard her while sleeping. I thought of and reached out to Tim and hope to connect for lunch tomorrow. Nevin also reached outre. Charlie Watts having died. I listened to a great episode on "Hidden Brain" about memory (https://podcasts.apple.com/us/podcast/hidden-brain/id1028908750?i=1000532851171) twice. Make of that what you will. The cleaners came, and it's worth it having the house consistently clean. I love it. What I don't love, though, is my shit getting moved—even a little. I have to walk around and return things to their proper place and position. It isn't enjoyable. I got the pilot tires rotated. I enjoyed that brief time with Jen, just walking around and talking while we waited. We're good for each other, and that's good for the kids. I'm hoping the year ahead will settle and stabilize in ways that give us all some recovery and reclamation.