Today was a good work day. Focused, engaged, productive. Took Lauren to Campbell Job Fair, then a quick bite at Aqui. Brought lunch home for Tommy too. Tommy's seeming better, too. Still some smart ass comments but I'm letting them slide or pointing out how instead, something more productive could be said. It's going to take time and consistency to undo some of the years of damage done to both of them. Marya dropped by but I was on a work call. She left me a souvenir from PML days. Fucking awesome. Sent her home w/Mitchella Innuendo, hoping she likes it as much as we do. Dinner at Cindy Mirassou's w/her parents was uncomfortable in that I'm just not comfortable in my body or amongst strangers right now. Great people though, really impressive and makes me hope to live long and be in good health, which I'm not right now. In many ways I'm in denial about many feelings and realities as they play out. I need some alone time to write, process, and just resolve a lot of what's going on instead of just keeping busy and being in endless demand.