Got up and did my meditations even though I wanted to sleep in the right direction. It's much easier too with the early light of summer. Dog walk was interrupted by quite the bleed-out of the skin graft behind my left ear. Pretty gross, really, but manageable, and that's a huge point of awareness for me these days. Everything's relative. I said at GNO tonight that I consciously know my stress level can be high and unnecessary, but I have yet to make that as subconscious behavior. Same with this. It's not second nature yet to not get upset about things I can't control. I'm being tested, for sure, but it's also about learning to say no, and prioritize myself. Not something I've learned well enough so far. Work engagement was good, again, and that's rewarding. Lauren went to Linda's final radiation appointment with me. She waited in the car as usual. Met w/Dr afterwards. The nurse, Sheila, was awesome but the conversation w/Wong was frustrating. 2 Kathy's on speakerphone w/bad connections and kids in the background don't go over well w/more disciplined science oriented folks. But questions were answered all the same. Next steps are a bit of a waiting game. It's a good time for both kids to put more time into her which they need to do while they can. Met w/Marlin and walked away once again feeling a bit more optimistic about at least the year ahead. We'll see how it goes. I'm glad I'm trying more to put focus into work needs. Tommy was pretty hard core about the whole "driving the pilot" thing but I did my best to try and not get in the ring. Jen made an amazing Chicken Parmasagna and I ran to get her Absolute Pear and Elderberry in gratitude. GNO was fun and we're going to meet in 2 weeks in person at Dry Creek.
