Too many activities, too many needs, too many demands on time, and perhaps too many assumptions on my own part that only I can attend to anything asked of me. I'm finding myself filling time instead of making the best use of it, often out of apathy or lack of motivation. Things with the kids mom are dragging out and painful, as is trying to maintain an optimistic and encouraging outlook for somebody that does not seem capable of taking on a 'fight for my life' stance. Even tonight's haircut and attempted measurement for a wig for her made from her daughter's hair was met with an apparent need to maintain a state of denial. I shared my 11/2014 email w/her sister in order to shed light on the history of the behavior. I don't know how to help when the only help requested is support of the denial. I'm taking tomorrow off to spend the full day w/Jen. Crema to start, likely some casual thrifting, maybe a hike too, anything to just get some 1:1 time. She's been so amazing and we're both on edge.
