Happy "would have been 87th" Birthday, Dad.
Yesterday was pretty full. So much so that, even though I expected to sleep out of exhaustion, I was anything but tired. I wrestled with the covers as well as the idea of getting back up and doing something, anything, besides lay away in bed. Eventually I caved and rose, quietly, made myself a cup of Ginger Lemon tea, grab a few packets of Honey Roasted peanuts and a few matching squares of 85% Lindt, turned on the TV, put on the bluetooth Bose OE2s and stayed up until ~2am watching a random set of trump-bashing late night shows and Cineflix episodes on YouTube capturing a slew of their "the 10 most <adjective> movies ever" videos. I was thrilled to see "Synecdoche, New York" listed as #2 in the "10 most emotional movies of all time". Amen to that. I still managed to get up, albeit a bit later than planned and groggy as hell, in time to have time to manage the usual morning routines before settling into the work day. Although it was a relatively routine day, the 1:1 w/Randy was enjoyable and covered work and non-work topics, I had a conversation with a direct report that seemed to maybe slightly passively imply a possible departure on the horizon…, but I'm not really sure yet. And a late PM call from my boss introducing a desire to setup an in-person 1:1 social-distance monthly coffee or lunch for the purpose of maintaining contact, connection and sanity. My first thought – termination. Actually, my second thought was that, my first was to buy into the proposal as being sincere and it was only later, mulling it over, that I started to get nervous. What felt good was feeling like, well, at least I'll stop waiting for it, and I'll be ok. Some later sleuthing on my part (I have my sources) revealed that it's more likely the first assumption, sincere. I'll know Thursday at 2pm. I'll be fine either way. Jeri indicated Paula had a much better day, not 'out of the woods' but she was more responsive, which is good. It's not clear this is going to turn around, but if nothing else, it might be a more peaceful exit if that's where it goes. I'm going to send her an impromptu support video. Linda reached out to revise the plans for Lauren's upcoming wisdom tooth removal, and the level of concern being voiced about all of the various aspects, steps, restrictions and such seems to be far more to her than it is to me. Still, putting empathy and consideration before irritation and frustration, I'm going to work as much with her as to the updates and actions and what have you, as possible. However, she can't call me, and although she's not blocked at the phone level maybe I blocked her through ATT. It might be the case, I recall getting pretty frustrated more than once. Closed the night with GNO, enjoyed the chance to stay connected, as always.