Kids were with us last night, and I stayed up late, and unexpectedly well into the early morning hours. We've not fully nailed down the root cause but OMFG the dog was really struggling last night. At first I found it annoying but as soon as it become clear something was off, the annoyance decreased, a bit, and I proceeded to get up, put on sweats and follow him trotting about the house restlessly. I let him out front, out back, and event out beyond the gate where he frantically trotted about until having explosive diarrhea next door. We went back inside for a brief bit but he remained restless so I put the harness on and waked him about in the same frenzied manner. 3am and I'm out walking the dog until he exposed again in the the street. Poor guy. There's an assumption it was, yet again, related to a change in the diet, but it was a minor one and for fuck's sake the dog's just a bit too sensitive, I guess. Eventully we returned and I got to sleep around 3.30am. Tommy gracefully accepted that his am gym trip was off and I tried to sleep late. He's seemed much better today but we've yet to see "solids" again. Maybe tomorrow. Work's financials for the month are really low due to all the politics and such but I'm trying to remain optimistic. I'm planning to reply to L's email about my requested changes tomorrow afternoon, as I feel bad introducing upsetting responses when it might impact her evening and sleep. It's so weird, how compelled I feel to be considerate when it's really her that needs to put more consideration into how she considers and gauges my requests, action and character. I doubt I'll ever be seen as a good person again, by her, which will always bug me. Both kids really seem to have adjusted well through the years, though, and I think that they're seeing a better dynamic and having better experiences now than 8 years ago. Tommy and I got In n Out and had it waiting for Lauren when she was dropped at 6. He had a friend over and Lauren, Jen and I watched an American Experience documentary about GWBush. Part 1. It's fascinating. Age and experience have taught me to recognized "visual errors in time as well as space" and in some ways I think I had been too judgmental about his presidency. Yet I also struggle with the business aspects of the war machine and decisions being made that might tie to profit as motives. That's a whole separate topic and I'm a bit worn down about politics after last week. Still, it was and is really sincerely enjoyable to hear Lauren's perspectives and observations. She's a wonderful intelligent and strong young lady. It's been an honor to have played a leading role in her life. His too. He has been difficult at times but also loving and genuine and sincere. The best part is how accommodating and accepting Jen's been through out all of this.
