I managed to get up and ready to take Tommy to LGSR at 6am. I heard his alarm go off and waited. He ran late, but I rolled with it and deflected the blame as being on him, not me. I walked for an hour and returned. He pressed to stop at his mom's en route back but I said no, which of course was met with pushback. The simple truth is I'm getting tired of being pressed and rushed because I'm doing things to meet others needs instead of allowing myself the grace and time to have room for my own errors and delays. It was nice to have time to walk Scottie and clean up for work and get my focus on the tasks at hand. It was a good morning. I cancelled the dermo appointment for tomorrow so I can work on sprint planning needs, and because the bottom line will be a direction to leave things alone so they can heal. Beyond wanting the elbow issue addressed it's all in my own court, really. Lauren came at 6pm and we watched the Flight Attendant (1st 30 w/Jen to get her up to speed. It's an interesting show and I am caught up in the puzzle, so it'll be interesting to see where it goes. Lauren's getting up w/me in the AM and Jen/I are going to do a fast for the day. I need that, I'm still failing to return to the best routines for my long term health and happiness. There's all sorts of excuses that can be made but in the end it's all in my control. Just like the drinking and other vices I've managed to set aside. Just like the walking I'm now doing daily. Just like adding the routines to ensure the house is in order, the dog's eyes and teeth are maintained, and any other number of simple steps that simply fall into place when the priorities are clear. This is doable, too.
