Some days feel devoid of any noteworthy incidents, but not today. I made a meh-effort to return to meditation after a week or so of absence. It wasn't perfect but it was enough and I'll return for more tomorrow. I appreciate the nature of being present and loose it all to quickly to the forces of the average day. Today was a busy one. Listened to the entire "Letter to You" Springsteen release, and it's good. But the marketing of it's pretty aggressive and bordering on overkill. Still, good stuff and certainly worth returning to. Tommy ordered he and I Philz and then he got all cranked up on the caffeine which made him distracted and distracting. He's still not engaging in school enough and for fuck's sake, what does it take? He's not driven for at least a week or more and seems to not care about that. It's so hard letting go of the false believe the I can somehow force him, let alone make him recognize the value and purpose behind the effort. I had a myriad of plates spinning on sticks for most of the day and he got on my nerves about buying an iPhone or just sitting 'in my space' so I asked him to just go away, present I'm in an office, not at home. I washed and ran Lauren's Vasona staff shirt to her [both] so she had it for the afternoon. Later, I took Tommy by Panorama to see his mom. Another case of being unable to get through to him. It's really hard to see and hear him lamenting being there and I wanted him out of there for his and her benefit, but it's surely being seen as a covert attempt at alienation, which it's not. I want him home with her. We rant to target for some home-goods then drove about but I wasn't feeling too hot. Not Covid (I don't think) but indigestion from the left over Gyro. I hope. Jen s/be getting test results tomorrow. We made the hard decision to delay our Minnesota trip. I hate doing so but with this 'close call' (TBD) and the spikes and warnings and such, it's just not smart. Not when I can't feel like I'm potentially bringing or spreading something that can risk the health of those I encounter. Not good. Tommy ended up moving his room around and it brought back memories of doing the same at his age in my mom's house. I loved switching things up like that. Changing patterns and environments wakes you up again, for awhile, until it's routine again. Returned w/Tommy to find Jen starting "King of Staten Island" and watched with her. That was a lot better than I had expected. Very genuine and touching, really. Right after that I noticed that "On The Rocks" was available on AppleTV and I really REALLY enjoyed that one. Simply from the perspective of characters and dialog, and story line too. I'm watching things of late with a writers eye. My exposure to Dean's screenplay has me paying attention to these things and the dialog in both felt genuine and real. I want to convey that to Dean. I may do that right now.