Mixed day. Got up early and started working right away on a backlog of tasks including pantry/bins, clearing out the bin of C2 junk I'd grabbed, trimming the back hedge, etc. Lost my shit w/Tommy over helping w/boxes I'd been asking about all week, and again later when he alluded to having a bunch of money but wouldn't tell me where it came from. We ended up taking it through but it 'broken' me for the moment, as I'm just worn down by the constant unnecessary need to argue. It's so hard to understand his reflex need to be standoffish. Lauren worked 12-6.30 and we grabbed Andalé for dinner. I listened to more of "A lot of people are saying" audiobook. Also read some good posts online about conspiracy theory stuff and it's fascinating. Struck me while discussing w/Jennifer how it's becoming in a way a 'new religion' and reaching a point of dogmatic refusal to consider anything that might disprove a conspiracy as anything other than a deception. It also made mw wonder where it will go over the next 20+ years. Not sure I'll be around for it, but I'm skeptical. Didn't post last night, but got onto a tear w/some tasks then, too, including car washing, power-washing the driveway and a number of other upkeep tasks. Maybe I'm getting obsessed about upkeep and order because I've let it slide a bit and it's wearing me down. I need a vacation. One starts Tuesday. Meanwhile, tomorrow is just 30 min away.