It's been quite a stressful past day or two. The dog was acting weird and having the 'runs' all night and then … blood was coming out. Vet run, a day of waiting and $800 later he checked out OK and was given antibiotics and such. And in trying to determine what caused this, Lauren pointed out my having given him bacon. I did, as I was cooking some up, and I gave him a good amount of the yummy fat, which he gobbled up. Only, dog's don't fare well eating bacon. It causes, well.. yeah, what we went through. He's on the mend now so that's good, but it was another reminder of illness, aging, eventualities and my desire to be present and experience all I can while I can. Feels that way w/the kids too, as they're about to turn 17 tomorrow, and I'm hoping to get some 1:1 time with Tommy this weekend because we've not for awhile and I think he needs some connection. Lauren's doing well, but I think she holds a lot it. There was a fiasco of sorts related to him coming to Matson off-custody and with school work yet to do. He's struggling there, and so is Lauren, and I feel powerless as to effecting any change for them. The smokey skies continue as the fires continue but appear to be getting under relative control, 20% contained in some instances, I believe. I'm looking forward to catching up with Martin at Philz tomorrow.