Mixed bag over the past couple of days. 4th was low key day. Enjoyed a fun game-night with Tabitha and Joe, playing "Oh Hell" and then learning Hanabi. Fireworks had Scottie completely trembling and freaked out. Don't know if the Thunder Shirt helped or not, and if so, it was reductive not preventative. Weight loss stalled/reversed which sent me into a funk I'm still not out of. I resent the hell out of having spent a week focused aggressively on loss only to see it wiped out by two days of unexplained gain. Cycles, adaptations, muscle mass, blah blah fucking blah. I'm furious still, and over only the the 'loss of progress' that I still don't fully understand, but the lack of access to anything substantive that can explain it. In this and pretty much anything any more, finding a reliable source of truth is next to impossible, it's all opinion, observation and experience ... but "your milage may vary". Yesterday I was in a shitty mood most of the day, brought about by the aforementioned as well as trying to juggle various craigalist efforts to give away old outdoor seating, sell two other items, and to buy a replacement washer/dryer for the house due to the limitations and increasing unreliability of those had, and the reality that my ability and confidence in fixing them did not magically make the time to do so appear out of thin air. Happily found an awesome. Had to burn a full day though waiting to rent a truck from Home Depot due to shortage and mechanical issues on what they had. My tendency to constantly initiate 3 or more parallel tasks works against my goal of a simpler life. I'm grateful that the people in my life tolerate my sporadic irritations and impatience. It's nice to feel accepted and understood. Tommy spent the evening/night w/Talon and friends so it was Jen/Lauren/I solo last night/today. I'm re-joining the work force today and have a full plate of task to keep in motion and/or initiate, which will likely be my dominate focus. I'm going to try and set aside distractions and not spin up too many other parallel tasks.