Wednesday, July 29, 2020
Having the kids at Matson all week continues and it's been pleasant. I think it's been a good opportunity for Tommy and Linda to have some space away from the routine conflicts, and he's been improving too in how he behaves. Picked up 50 or so 2-cup gasket-style sealing jar's that I'm passing on to Marissa and Nigel. Lauren ran with me to Ikea for a late-lunch outing as I was seeking outdoor cushion covers that ended us being out of stock. Tommy came shopping for food after work so he had a chance to get things he wanted, which makes it easier on me, and I managed to fast through the day with relative ease, and I'm nearing a goal I've wanted to be at for some time. Watched "Greyhound" and although it was visually exciting, it felt rushed and I did not really attach to the characters. On a sad note, Jay passed away today. It's a bit surreal trying to put it into perspective. We had a decent relationship throughout my marriage to his sister, but he was prone to be elusive and distant too. I have always been amazed at how long he managed to survive with the transplants and such, and this was an inevitability that he had the good fortune to stall for a decade or more. Tommy expressed some sincere upset and emotions while Lauren seemed more at peace and slightly less impacted by it. For me, even though I would not expect it in return, it's sad to see his life conclude and a reminder that time is indeed limited. I want to leave as much 'good' behind as possible, myself, and I am focusing for the moment on the good experiences and memories I have of his life and respect for our shared humanity.