Great Minds Think Alike (but you already know that)

Unable to get through to Tommy. Tensions built and pushback was constant. Feel horrible. He's withdrawing from me instead of recognizing my sincere best intentions as to his use of Insta, his counseling needs, even down to the fact that I locked his phone down entirely because he called me a 'douche' and turned off location sharing. He ended up snapping and smashing his phone. I feel responsible because I failed to teach him any better way to manage his frustrations and upset. I seem incapable of making anything stick. I'm defeated and resigned to being remembered as the source of his horrible childhood. Missed meditation for the 1st time but who am I kidding? Only bright spot of the day was a drive past Calaveras Reservoir w/Jen, Lauren and Scottie. PM run to Mt. Umunhum before dropping at Pano was filled with snark and rudeness, even when it was done 100% for him. Pointless.

Gratitude: Lauren's positive efforts.


Goal: Stop trying to control.