The day started reasonably well and I had some time to write about the experience here so far. I'm sorta done here. It's too much for me. Too many people, too much chaos, too many kids shouting or arguing back against direction. I have enough of that in my daily life. I don't need more. I don't know what lies ahead in the way of vacations for us. I think it's best that I do 1:1 with Jen or Lauren or Tommy but I'm sofaking tiered of having to argue or feel bad for not wanting to do what 1/4th of the group wants to do. Jen said tonight to others that i'm neurotic. That hurt. That's not how I see myself, but does anybody others consider difficult realize that they are? It's sad, but my parenting life and personal life seem at odds. Something has to give. Soon.
Gratitude: It's nice to have photos of my life with them to look back on. I wish I could be more conscious each day about the value of each moment. I try. I don't always succeed.
Goal: Regroup tomorrow.
Anticipation: Scottie's reception when we return to Matson.
Accomplishments: Meditation Walking Mindfulness Parenting
