So many minor fleeting moments occur every day, and dissipate moments later, to be forgotten and/or replaced by the next fleeting moment. So each night as I try to reflect and recap the day, well, it's not a simple task. It requires remembering and sifting through those cluttered stacks of recollections. It's interesting too because I learned recently that my 81yr old mom journals daily and obsessively. I'm not talking about high level details but micro-details. And as I try to capture my own days, I hope and imagine doing so keeps the brain alive. But also that I don't feel compelled to live in too much of the 'micro' moments. In any case, the day started with dropping Tommy on time and with little/no struggle or attitude or defiance. Lauren came with us, we did a 2x mountain drive circle and I dropped her before heading home to engage in the morning meetings including the monthly "All Hands". The day and work progressed as is routine but I also had the Ikea/TaskRabbit appointment. "Emmet" came, spent 2hrs and assembled the platform storage bed. In parallel I did further triaging of the iPhone battery issues as well as reformatted Jen's work Mac's in order to help her get that managed. I cleared the mirror-closet doors out (to the garage) and the bedroom is so minimal and pristine it's simply invigorating. I could not be happier and Jen's happy too. Win-win. I picked up Tommy and was presented with the continued "boosted board" drama. I was told to take it and I let her know I wasn't going to assume the roll of the "consequence enforcer" when they were hers to enforce during her custody. I ended up getting Tommy and the board remained there. We'll see what happens next. Took the kids to a quick dinner at Boston Market (their choice not mine) with Scottie along for the ride. Tommy was lamenting his frustrations and as he presented it, it sounded contentious but not like he was being unreasonable about the issues and expectations. He also said he told her he didn't fight with me because he respected me, which really felt rewarding to hear. I want him to respect her too, and feel bad that she seems so consistently 'devastated' and her life is consumed with unhappiness. It's so unnecessary and it's something that effects the kids deeply too. But there's also little I seem able to do including giving my input on how to manage Tommy better, which is met with accusations of my brainwashing him into hating her. Anyway, after dinner we went home, I drove Lauren back home briefly to feed the rabbit and also broach the "DC Trip" idea with her mom, who rightly wants to talk to the parents and understand the specifics before agreeing. That's not unreasonable. I'm hoping it works out for Lauren, that would be such a great growth and adventure opportunity.
Gratitude: I'm grateful my son respects me.
Goal: I hope to continue to model and act in the most positive and considerate ways I can with their mom. It's just hard 'in the moment' at times to not get frustrated.
Anticipation: Continuing the efforts to reduce clutter and get more open space in our home.
Read "A Man Called Ove'. Listened to LeBron James on Calm app
Accomplishments: Meditation Walking Mindfulness Parenting Cleanup
