Now, it’s hard not to consider myself a hypocrite when I tell my kids to avoid it, but i tell them to avoid alcohol too. I do drink wine and whiskey in front of them, on occasion and in moderation, but I have never shared with them that I have smoked pot beyond allusions to it as an experiment of youth at best.
My creativity and sensory experiences have both been amplified due to smoking pot. But so has my sense of guilt and of being a failure as a parent. So it’s not all good. The chemical reaction that causes connections in the brain that would otherwise not occur isn’t something I always enjoy. In fact, there’s been frequent times that I’ve found it to be something of a mistake I’ve had to ride out.
I’m going to take a break and walk away from pot. I’m not sure about alcohol, I really do enjoy sipping a nice whiskey or enjoying a glass of wine. But I am beginning to correlate more negative than positive with marijuana. It brings on a degree of lethargy and a reduction of productivity occurs too.
For the next few months I will instead be focused on increasing my meditation. I love meditating. I have found it rewarding in many ways. But I am not spending as much time as I believe I should on it. The time I spend getting high would be better served by meditation and writing. Two things that are not only positive and impactful in good ways for me, but I’m not concerned about ever having to explain either to my kids.
And the best thing of all is that the hand positions are pretty much the same, sans the joint.