I read somewhere recently that the definition of insanity is doing the same thing over, and expecting different results. So, I’m likely "certifiable" at this point. I need to really work on better understanding why I’m doing what I’m doing. I can’t keep getting angry at the world for being what it is. I can’t keep expecting that I will be able to manage everything in a way that meets everybody's expectations including my own, or that she will be reasonable, or he will improve overnight, or that work won't require 'work' on my part. Or that, with all I have going on, and all that I’ve wrestled with for so many years, it’s not a surprise to be worn down, to feel no control, scattered, unable to focus and to feel like a failure. But if I keep doing the same thing over... and failing... well... that's something I need to look at, no?
