I’m taking a walk and going to Starbucks on Foxworthy Avenue. I’m going to try and incorporate at least three walks a week into my routine, especially when I’m working from home. I need to get out and move about more. The sedentary aspects of my daily life are beginning to show their harmful signs in my weight, muscle loss and pain from something as simple as… well… walking.
My stress level is really high today. Last week, after a few years of back-and-forth argumentation, and at what I consider to be a generous compromise, I arrange for a proposal to go to her regarding our support agreement. Now I’m waiting for the response. I have reason to anticipate it won’t be fully accepted, and there will be pushed back, and I’ll need to make an effort to spend a day or two contemplating things before responding. My reflex inclination may be to completely shut down all efforts to discuss further, sell the house, and completely abandon all hope whatsoever that there might be any reciprocal consideration of fairness and equity and effort on her part towards me.
This has all wrecked havoc on my work performance. I’m distracted and befuddled and I’m having a hard time staying focused on anything, let alone the responsibilities of my position as a VP of Engineering. I have a long list of tasks backed up that I want to try and tackle when I get back to the house after this walk. There’s a monthly review meeting but I should be able to multitask through that. Of course that’s my hope, but every day there’s always a flurry of activity and needs for information and managing changing priorities … hopefully it will all balance out and I will get some of the higher tasks addressed by the end of the day.
The kids are with me tonight. I always love that. I’m not quite sure what will be doing but it will probably be a home based evening. It’s Thursday, a school night, I will keep it low-key. Maybe tomorrow night will go out for dinner somewhere just to get out and about. Tonight… they forage through what’s on hand.
She responded to my request for Saturday evening return of kids so I can go to that party. But she herself has plans, yet she should be home by 9 but may be home later than that. I’m on the fence about whether I want to avoid having her take the kids, let them stay at home alone for a few hours, or skip the party.
