My God, it's so hard to maintain a calm attitude when I feel so unappreciated. I had a conversation tonight get started reasonably well. The topic was about the differences between her and my needs for order and simplicity. We maintain a civil tone for the first part of the conversation but when I began to point out how I felt the need for more clutter that is necessary indicated a choice being made between the items and the people in the home, things went south quickly. It takes so much out of me to try and get a message across about what is so simple in my mind. I'm sure the same feelings are returned when it comes to her priorities but I think I understand and get them and I spent 15 years trying to adapt to them.it all seems to boil down to me not being the man she wanted to be and how much I am to blame for that.
