A couple of months ago, I hit a personal high, pace and outlook that was revolutionary for me. At about that same time, Charlie Sheen was hitting the news for being a complete whack-job. Yet I slightly idolized his perspective and felt a kinship with the optimistic, aggressively positive outlook he was espousing.
I don't have access to quite the same mood altering resources he has available at his disposal, so I've found it a difficult to consistently maintain that perspective. At my peak, during that short run of euphoric outlook, I had a clear, concise and optimistic view of life. I had a strong and firm grasp on what was important. Family. Love. Self-esteem. Focus. Commitment. Discipline.
Then I slipped.
I don't recall exactly what it was that threw me off track, but I do know that I stop being patient, I stop being optimistic, I stop thinking about all of the good things and opportunities. Instead, fell into old habits, finding frustration with situations I could not rationally expect to control, and resentment over my inability to do so.
What a waste.
But there's no reason I could not easily regain my footing, and position atop that mental hill. In fact, there's every reason I should. I'm already 3/4 there. I lost some mindfulness, some "reality-check" perspective that so easily lifted me to that high of highs.
It's simply a matter of remembering how lucky I am to have all the things I do have, to wake up every day able to do the things I do, living in the place I live and having the opportunities I have. And then remembering that it's a limited time offer so I'd damn well better enjoy it.